Are you f****** kidding me?! Rant Thankyou ladies.... Update
Alright little back story. My daughter was induced three days early and had complications since( nothing major but still) she has had hip dispelesea, jaundic, and sleep apnemea. She still has acid reflux, reactive air way diease, hypothyroidism, FTT, and devlopmental delays and possible need of braces for feet. My daughter has already gone through an endoscopy and bronoscopy and they sent us home and we ended back in the er because she can't Handel being put under or the tube in her throat. We have spent close to 30 days already in the hospital put together. They wanted to put in a gi tube and I fought it until they saw she could thrive without i. I ms. teen mom go to bed at 2 am and wake up at 4 just to make sure she eats and grows. I have givin up on myself I hardly eat never go out, finnaly just told my abusive husbond to go fuck himself and now I'm trying to find a job go to college and raise my daughter correctly. She is sooo happy never cries! But silently she suffers, my sweet happy baby is suffering and I can't fix it! Now her stomach isn't closing like it should we have one last chance with a new med but if her body dosent work like it should ( when does it? To be honest) my sweet angel will put under for surgery! I am the only one fighting it! My asshole soon to be ex didn't care! Only my step mom and I do.
I wish people ( including my family) would stop looking at my age and look how far my daughter has come and how hard I'm working to get her to go farther. I wish I could stop being depressed anxious and so emotionally fucked up! But that's dosent matter if my daughters in pain and what do you think is going to happen when she has to have surgery?! She will be in a lot of. Pain will have to be admitted for days Maby weeks because she won't take it well, she never does she is to fragil.
So that's my confession this is why 19 years old is way to young to be a mom, not impossible but still to young.
Ok I was expecting one or Maby two comments I really appreciate it. It warms my heart knowing that some of you ladies are praying for us and giving out advice and past experiences. Thankyou all again. :)
*update* well Monday night I started the meds and last night ( wendsday) I saw a huge white thing in her mouth hard as a rock. Scared I called the doctor on call and stopped giving her the new med, we made an appointment and saw the doctor today. She thinks she is allergic to the meds since the white thing is COMPLETLY gone. The only other possiblity Is that she got something very spicy in her mouth( she did nock over a bottle yesterday morning but I don't think it was spicy and it did not get into her mouth, I also washed her hands then gave her a bath then Basicly moped the floors with boiling waters after cleaning up the glass) needless to say the doctor and my whole family think that it is the medicine that's doing this :/ so that means she will have to have the surgery, but I will try to get some more time.. I will do anything to advoid surgery if possible. ( I also called and left a message with the doctor who prescribed the med so that he knew she may have a possible allergy to it, and that we would know tomorrow) also the doctors office that she will be tested for the allergy is right above a hospital just incase and her doctor dosent play games with my daughter she knows, I told her I swear it was there and she said she believed me and believed me when I said that stuff didn't get in her mouth but I did ask her to note it.
I wanted to ask did I do the right thing? ( from what you can read?)