Well I started counseling on Monday. Received a few diagnosis that I knew were probably going to be. I am still feeling suicidal but at least now my husband and therapist know. I signed an emergency intervention plan that promises I will call 911 if I feel I am about to do something and so will my husband. My diagnosis are Bipolar, PTSD, Anxiety and mild agoraphobia. You gals are the 1st people I have told my diagnosis to. I have been pondering on them for the week and just feel the need ot reach out right now. After my next session she will have me see the Psychiatrist to be placed on some meds to help alleviate the symptoms and I am going to be in intense therapy. She said my agoraphobia is the most she is worried about since I never leave my house and avoid public places like the plague. I had to force myself just to go to therapy. My anxiety has been giving me heart palpitations daily and I am scared of leaving my home most days. I guess I just posted this to get it out, not for anything really, just to get it out there. Thanks for letting me just do that.