Do you let it hold you back from what you want to do?
Like, I used to be really skinny and over the years and different meds and birth control I gained a lot of weight. Im now 280 lbs! I hate me. I used to love to go walk because guys would honk at me. I wont go see any of my old friends from high school because I dont want them to see me. I wont go meet new people because I dont want them to see how ugly and disgusting I look. I hate going out in public because people will see me. I hate going to the grocery store to buy food because I dont want people seeing me with any type of food. I LOVE amusement parks, but wont go because Im afraid I wont fit in the ride.
I've tried losing weight and once I lost 40 pounds in a month, but I made myself so miserable doing it. I didn't eat more then 300 calories a day and I exercised all day. Last night I bought an xbox kinect and got the zumba. I did it twice today 20 mins each time. I'm not going to make myself miserable doing it this time. I'm not going to count calories, but I'm not going to eat junk either. I think I can stick with the zumba because its fun and I enjoyed doing it.
I'm just so miserable living my life. I want to be thin, I want to feel pretty. I am so lonely because I won't let myself find friends all because of the way I look. I have to change that or I will never be happy. I will live my life in misery.
So do you let your weight hold you back? Am I the only one? I think there is something wrong with me, but I can't fix it. I hope I can lose weight and I hope it fixes me.