I have been talking alot around here about ectopic, miscarriages and ttc.
Most of you who remember me know I had one of my tubes removed about 6 wks ago. My pregnancy was ectopic. The stupid dr didnt catch it. Yes I have every reason to call him stupid. He never checked a thing. Not once was I given an ultrasound from him no matter how much I complained of pain. So I lost a tube from his stupidity.
I just want my baby. I would have been due around the end of april, beginning of may. I tried so hard for 6 yrs to get pregnant again. When I did I was ecstatic. Everything came crashing down a week later. Why do things like this happen? Why cant I be normal? We have everything we could ever need and most of what we want. Except a baby.
I thought I was done being sad. For the past couple days every movie or show I watch has someone pregnant. I envy every noticably pregnant woman I see. I am crying my eye balls out right now. I am pigging out latelly. I know food is not for comfort, but I think thats what it is starting to be.
I am thinking about seeing a therapist. Bad idea?