I'm staying awake a lot longer than i should, its 2am. my baby is almost 4 months old, i love him dearly, but he is pretty high needs... he was born with a tongue tie and had problems eating, we werent able to get it fixed until he was 2 1/2 months old. he was starving all the time and it was very painful, during that time i had to make sure he never cried, because each cry was a calorie, i started sleeping skin to skin so that he wouldnt be cold and only concentrate on growing. i fed him constantly. he only naps if i lay with him in bed.
he is doing better now, but he still will only nap if ilie next to him, and if i dont he screams and screams and screams and gets so overtired he wont sleep and only screams. and the past few days ive been dealing with him screaming jsut because i got up to go to the bathroom.
so right now hes asleep and it is SO nice to just have me time, i dont want to sleep yet. but its 2 am and i know i will get tired but i also know i can squeeze in a nap or two when he naps, if i catch his tiredness in time. if i dont get him to nap in time however he will scream all day.
i'm worried because i have a friend over at 2 tomorrow. i'm hoping this aligns right with his naps.
oh and today, my mother yelled at me for the kitchen not being clean enough and yelling at me for always being stuck in bed with the baby she says its ridiculous and i need to learn how to do other things with the baby and she had 4 kids and could keep the entire house sparking and do laundry and cook and blah blah blah. she says its ridiculous i cant do very much. :(
i'm not gonna lie it mad eme cry A LOT when she said that. i feel like i'm failing as a mother.