People wanted to pay it forward for me because a few months ago I was nearly suicidal and lonely and my world was crashing down. They committed to help me, swore, and JUST DIDN'T. The relief I had when I found out that people out there aren't all bad, and that feeling if excitement that we were going to be okay because of someone's help was overwhelming. I guess I'm grateful for those emotions, but disappointed in the huge disappointment and even more sadness that came from them not following through with their promises. Waiting on an envelope that never arrived. I got back on my feet on my own, and I'm sponsoring a family this Christmas, and I will actually FOLLOW through and DO IT.