Years of repressed feeling finally coming to the surface...
This is only a vent, no response necessary. I just need to get this off my chest!
For thirty years I wonder who you were, what kind of man you were...if I mattered to you. For the first five years, you would call my sister and I once every six months...once on my birthday, and again on my sisters birthday. You would promise us that birthday cards and money was in the mail. But it always got lost in the mail and never arrived. Finally you stopped calling altogether. It was ten years before we heard from you again. Again you made promises to us that were broken, that you'd come to see us, that you'd send tickets for us to come see you. Again, nothing.
When I chose to move closer to you to get to know you, and to let your grandkids get to know you I thought it would be a fresh start. But once again you are making promises for things that you aren't following through on.
I live five minutes away from you and yet you STILL don't call or make any effort to come see me and the kids. Then you turn around and guilt me for not calling you or coming over with the kids to see you. All you talk about is dying. You are convinced you are going to die next week and you use that to try to make me and my sisters feel badly for not coming to see you and that makes me angry. You have a brand new grand baby from one of my sisters that you've made no effort to go and see. You insist that my sister pack up everything and the baby to come and see you, then you get mad and guilt her when she doesn't.
Perhaps if you had made more of an effort to spend time with us, care for us and love us when we were children instead of pushing us away to be with your girlfriends or downright ignoring some of us that lived too far away to make it worth your time and effor, we would be more willing to put in the effort to make time for you now. We have families of our own who need our care and effort a hell of a lot more than you do. Get over yourself, quit being such a selfish, egotistical ass and act like a father for once!
Oh yea, my oldest daughters birthday was a month ago. You came to the party with no gift, but told her you'd have it in three days when you got paid? Did that too get lost in the mail along with the five years worth of cards/gifts that you supposedly sent me thirty years ago?
I came here to get to know you...now, the more I get to know you, the more I can't stand you. Your selfish, lying, Narcistic attitude just repulses me!!
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