What to do...!?
I know I am not the only one in this group, or in this world that is struggling. I am a mom of one, in a long time divorce (almost there!:) I work part time for the government (They don't give full time until you are there for two years or more) And I'm living with my Grandparents (Because I moved here from another place to start this job).
I have a beat down car(all I could get) that I pay $130 on each time I get paid (every 2 weeks). Insurance comes out to $240/month (BC of my Age-22 & Area I live in ugh) I got the Go Phone plan so I pay $50/month. I have Health Insurance that comes from my Job so that another $131 every time I get paid so $262/month. I am also paying off some bills that I have... and I've tried getting rid of any extras. I help in the house and give my grandma $400 and pay my gas and neccesities.
Since my job is Part time, I get paid $13.94/hr and work 25hr/week. I try to push for more but its tough to get. So thats approx. $1,395/ month. So $1,212 in the bills above not including gas and food and whatever debt I have because of XH(medical expenses) And of course my job takes out all the extras. I am always broke before payday is over. Sometimes I don't even have gas money. I ALWAYS make sure my DD has everything she needs no matter what I have to do! Her bio dad doesn't pay CS. He's not even in the picture.
I got my new schedule (bc we have to bid on it) and chose 1000-1500 just so I can take and pick up DD from school. I wish I could have another job but then I don't really have anyone to watch my child. (My grams watches my other two cousins). I even applied for SNAP a few days ago so we can get some food in this house.And while at it, I am opening a CP case. Getting PayDay Loans is draining and I don't want to resort to that too much or im just losing money myself.
So to the point, I went today to work and for the first time I acted like an utterly BITCH. Like I wasnt mean to no one but I didnt TALK and I just wasnt my HAPPY GO LUCKY self. I feel like I am wasting my time here. Don't know what to do and Im trying so damn hard. I just want to leave sometimes.. but CANT! I hate this. I came here for the better life.. wtf now???? Whats left to do? I cant even get my own place!
Sorry so long... but WTF is there left to do?? What would you do??
My only reason for staying strong is because well, My DD IS THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE!