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We can't bring it up. If I talk about it he is leaving me.... Third update added

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Ok so Monday a little before noon I got an email from AT&T. It was the second time I received this same email! So I took a little more notice. It said that there was an unusually high volume of texts coming from one of our four lines. They wanted to make sure my line had not been crossed with another. So I start looking online at the bill. BIG FUCK UP ON MY PART! Turns out it was the hubby's phone. Now mind you on Monday while I was looking at the bill I didn't suspect anything! We just had a baby 2 weeks ago and he had been home with me for over 2 weeks. He wasn't acting any stranger than usual or anything.







So looking at the bill I do see ALOT of texts between him and one number in particular. However I thought it was a friend of ours. A male friend. Him and his wife have been in our lives for over a year now. So I ignored THAT number and kept going. Writing down every number I didn't recognize so I could ask him about them. Well after noticing a pattern of Monday-Friday 7am-11am and 12pm-4pm and nights after about 9 I started getting confused.







So I put the number into my phone. ANOTHER BIG MISTAKE! Her name came up. Not her husbands.







A little history here: Hubby and him worked together. in July he moved in with us for a month because they were having problems. It only lasted a month because he started missing her and wanting to see his daughter more and so on and so on. I encouraged him to give it another try with her. Well he did and it worked out for the better. GREAT! Well then he switched jobs. So he wasn't coming over nearly as much. She never really came over. The only time I would see him was on lunch and when he was waiting for her to get off of work. Well about 6 weeks ago I was put in the hospital. I was 33 weeks pregnant and my preeclampsia got really bad. I was transferred to another hospital 2 hours away because they thought we would have to deliver early. Well out of the blue she starts texting me. And I was weirded out by it because we had never really talked and I don't get along with females that great. A have bad experiences. Well I said something to hubbs about it and he was like oh just give her a chance. Maybe she is worried about you. Blah blah blah. So I talked to her occasionally. Well then I had ds2 on the first. While I was in the hospital my other 2 kiddos were sick and no one was wanting to deal with them. At least that's the story I got so he had to come home with the kids while I was in the hospital after having a very difficult labor that resulted in having an emergency c section. Baby's heart rate dropped really low my blood pressure dropped had to have blood transfusions just all kinds of crap. Now he was there for all of that but left about an hour after I had the baby.







Now back to Monday: I was instantly losing my mind. So I called him. MISTAKE #3. First I calmly asked if he was talking to her. He asked who told me that! WTF REALLY! So I blew up! And he told me that they had been fighting and she ha been asking for advice and shit! BULLSHIT! So I asked if her husband knew. And he says of course he knows I wouldn't go behind my friends back blah blah blah. Ok yeah BUH-BYE! And I called her. No mistake here. And I asked her why the fuck she was talking to MY husband. And I get the same answer. Oh they are having problems and she thought hubbs could talk to him and yeah. So i ask her. Does your husband know. Yeah he knows. Why wouldn't he know! Ok BUH-BYE! I instantly calle him!! Wanted to make sure they didn't have time to call him. He answered not knowing who I was. After I told him he was like hang on she is calling I said no dot answer I have something to ask you before she has time to lie to you. Caught his attention!! I asked if he knew they were talking. No. Are you sure? Well was it just a text or 2? So I told him about the email, took a picture of the computer screen so he could see. So on and so on. So we get off the phone and hubbs calls me back and asks if I called her husband. YEAH! DUH! And he goes off why did you tell him he's gonna kick my ass why would you do that I can't believe this. And then he says he has to go. That's it. Well I start looking more into the phone bills.







MISTAKE #4: So I am looking at the phone bill from oct 8th to Nov 7th. They talked NONSTOP! And 1 night in particular. The first. The night I was alone in the hospital. Well I asked his sister about not wanting to watch my kids. She said well I didn't say I wouldn't watch them I just told my brother they were fussing and I wanted to know what kind if meds to give them. And he came and got them. Well there was 16 picture messages and about 300 texts between them from the time he left the hospital and about 3 in the morning.







I think that's the part that hurts the most.







Continuing on through the bills. The beginning of oct he was on a job (oilfield worker) an he supposedly didn't have any service. Lets just say we didn't talk much for those 5 days. He talked to her nonstop.







And moving on further. They have been talking since her husband moved out!! And I fended for the dirty bitch! Ugh!







Ok well let me say I love my husband. I have a new baby and 2 toddlers. I am a stay at home mom. And have severe depression. There is no way in hell I can do it alone. Plain and simple. And I don't want to do it alone. We have been together for 5 years. I don't want that to just go down the drain. I don't want to lose something I love. I love my life. All of it. My husband. My kids. My shitty house. My car that will crap out soon. The fact that we aren't rich but we have everything we need. Maybe not all we want. But certainly everything we need. It's amazing that with him, I haven't had to take meds for my depression. I mean there are days where I get frustrated and a little bit distracted but I haven't had to take meds! It's an awesome feeling.







So I am instantly drawn into that familiar depression. And I don't want anyone to know because I have worked hard on the image we portray. The couple that never fights. Now don't get me wrong it's not often but I hate when couples let everyone know all of their business ya know. So anyways. I text him and told him I wanted to work things out. That I don't want this to be the end. That if he was ok we would get through it.







So he gets off and I messed up again. MISTAKE #5. I said I wanted to work it out but I couldn't help myself. I started asking questions. And I mean I really want to know but I guess I should t have gone off about it like I did. And I guess it kinda hit him he was crying and stuff. I don't know. I don't know if I care. It's like you hurt me and here I am still worried that I am hurting you. But he wouldn't answer any of my questions. Except when I asked him if they had sex. He said no. And I asked if he loved her. He said no. He wouldn't answer me when I asked if he cared about her. Or is he going to miss not talking to her. He just kept saying I don't know. I don't know. I hate that!







I will tell the rest in a few I need to be a mom for a little bit!!





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Posted by Anonymous on Nov. 14, 2012 at 3:42 PM
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jamamama00
by Platinum Member on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:23 PM

Please tell me you don't really believe that he isn't banging her?!

Ideal_Lady
by Gold Member on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:24 PM
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It doesn't matter if he's having sex with her or not, he left you and his baby in the hospital to talk to her. That's a low blow. Begging him to stay won't help...it'll just make him treat you even worse.
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mommysangelface
by Emerald Member on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:25 PM

sweetheart, i am sorry you are going through this. You are better than this and deserve better than this. There is help out there so you can get on your feet. Help you find a place, get a job and be able to support yourself. 

Please consider moving on. I know it is hard but you can do it. You do not need him to validate yourself. 

Can you move in with family?  file for sole custody and child support

TugBoatMama
by on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:27 PM
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 He sounds like a total liar and a pussy. He is trying to bully you into silence so he doesn't have to address how guilty he is. This is a classic sign. When you confront the person they get angry and turn it around on you as if you are out of line. People don't like the sound of thier conscience sometimes so he is trying to drown you out.

Have enough respect for yourself to walk away from something that no longer grows you, fulfills you or makes you happy.

mali321
by on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:28 PM

Sorry you're going though this mama. I could never forgive and forget. My exhusband pulled some mental crap like this and then he did in fact cheat. And then lie. You deserve someone to love you as much as you love them. Yes there are things as mistakes, but mistakes don't last months. So sorry, hope you find a way to move on.

Anonymous
by Anonymous - Original Poster on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:28 PM
Well he walks into the kids room behind me and told me that he loves me. He said I know I have hurt you. It hurts me to know. He said there where times when he realized it needed to be stopped he just didn't know how to say it. And I know he is a people pleaser and there are times where I have had to step up and be the man because he can't bring him self to piss people off. Regardless it's no excuse. He told me he didn't want things to be over between us. That since the middle or so of my pregnancy he has just been unhappy. The middle of my pregnancy is when the preeclampsia started and we hadn't really had a sexual life since then. That was back in the beggining of June. And I understand that. I had felt him a little disconnected. Getting frustrated quickly. Just little stuff. But I figured it would pass as soon as we had the baby and our life got back to normal.

I love my husband.

He says he does want to work things through. But I am overwhelming him with the questions. And he doesn't know what to say. So he says that we can talk. But he doesn't want to talk about her. Anything about her. If I keep bringing it up he isn't gonna be able to handle the stress. And it's a mistake he wishes he could take back.

I think about it for a second. Can I handle these stipulations? Do I want to be with him? Do I think it is gonna happen again? So I told him that I was ok with it BUT he had to earn my trust back. I told him I was going to keep checking the phone bills. I was gonna check his Facebook, I want him to be ok with that. And he said ok. He said he is positive I won't find anything ever again so I could check all I want as long as I didn't tell him when I was doing it or anything about it!

So yeah I am ok with that. I get to keep my husband, I am still going to check the bills, I will check his phone for Facebook and other things and I won't bring it up.

I'll add more soon.
LAXmom21
by Ruby Member on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:28 PM

 This and don't worry about anyone but your kids and yourself! Don't be suprised if his "time " is spent with her though. Good Luck!!

Quoting mom2hadley:

If I was in your shoes, I would not want to be with him any longer. I don't believe for one second that he did not have sex with her. I also think you need to seek some help for your depression.

 

Angelicembrace
by The Dorkfish on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:29 PM

I'm sorry hun! That's awful :(. But you say you don't want to lose everything with him. You already have IMO. If anything you need to prepare yourself now, go get a job or school or something! My heart breaks for you, but you don't deserve that. I understand where you're coming from, I'm in the same boat as far as being a stay at home mom and stuff. But you can do it! Good luck with everything!

spooky415
by Ruby Member on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:30 PM
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I was with you until you were like "I love him. i have kids. I have depression. I can't do it alone. Plain and simple."

Yes you can. You think you're the first mom to suffer from clinical depression that found out her husband's a POS and was cheating? You're not. Put on your big girl panties, leave and move on.
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Litlmama87
by Platinum Member on Nov. 14, 2012 at 4:30 PM
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You had a baby, HIS baby, and before you could finish counting fingers and toes, he was out the door, focusing on this other woman.

That's what sticks out to me the most in all of this. My stomach dropped.
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