has now been cancelled and moved to my bff's house.
I honestly dont know how to feel, well, i feel bad and bitchy and sad and mad (hormonal? i think yest 7 1/2 months preggo).
We have recently moved in to a new home, it had been decided weeks ago that Thanksgiving Dinner would be at my house this year. To celebrate the new home.
2 weeks ago bff told me her sister was going to join us with her kids and hubby, between the two of them the figured out dinner. It bothered me that she didnt ask me first, if it was ok for her to come. since she just sprung it out on me, i was like, um ok sure thats ok, hubby was ok with too.
Last night, her hubby tells me , so you ok with every one coming over right? i said, ya your sister and the kids, that will be fun and ok. bff says no, not just them, she starts listing every one their family who is coming! her family alone are 7 people, plus 4 more with her sister, mine are 5 total. and she starts going on how about how, her mil, fil and a bunch of other people are coming!
i coulnt contain my self and with out even histation i said no! i am not ok with that, i dont even get along with that part of your family, your dad is a douche, and i hate the way he treats your mom. and lets not forget your tweeker brother and gf, who im sure would come announced with their baby, and the other brother with the gf and the their new baby as well. who are just smoochers and never ever help or provide anything for any gatherings other than their never ending appetite.
i felt so bad after i said it, but i really dont want these people at my house.I feel extremly bad because MIL just fond out she dont have much to live and she wants to spend it with her family. and it would have been nice to have them here but i just i dont like them, or get along with them or trust them and im afraid while they are here they will steal something, because thats the way there are.
so now not only am i forced to spend Thanksgiving at her house, but with these people as well. Talking their BS about how im a bitch for not opening my doors and so on.
So what makes me sad? that no thanksgiving will happen at our new home and i have everything plannedd out too.
what makes me feel bad? the fact that i denied this dying woman to spend time with her children at my home.
does this make bitchy or heartless?? i feel so confused and really just want to cry over it...
i feel stupid...