S/O (he was late again, and I over-reacted) UPDATE IN PINK**
So I posted asking for advice on what to do about my BF who keeps flaking, and I keep getting upset
if you missed the post
long story, short
My BF is awful with time but timing is very crucial in order for us to spend time together
he gets off work at 6:30p I go to work at 6:30p so if we don't see each other on one of my days off we will not see each other at all
in the past couple months, since I have had this schedule and he has had his
He has flaked on me a number of times, from falling asleep. He has flaked once where I came to his house, knocked on his door, called, and he never answered. He fell asleep. So after that I refuse to drive to his house at night becase it's a waste of time if he passes out on me.
He was supposed to meet me again at a certain time, fell asleep, I was waiting for an hour. I got mad, sad, annoyed, kind of bitched and we argued.
Now after getting feedback earlier I came to the conclusion that I need to decide if I want to be alone or with someone. And I very much want to be with him, but that shit is a headache to me. So I told that if he can't be on time for me or at least give me a "heads-up I'm going to be late" text I am done seeing him because I don't have time to wait around for anyone who doesnt respect my time.
So I was content with ending it, even though I am crying the whole time.
Then he replies saying "I thought seeing me would make you happy again" as if his presence just makes everything better, it does in th moment, but the moment comes and goes. KWIM?
so then I said being with you does make me happy but you are too unreliable and I need consistency right now especially with my schedule.
Then he says he'll try harder
and now I don't know what to do...I just told him I had to think about things for a little bit.
So I made the decision to let our relationship go. Thinking logically, if he is doing this now, he is going to keep doing this later so I ended it with him.
Then he fucking basically begs me to give us more of a chance. it's like, how many damn chances are there to give.
He keeps saying to let us develop as a couple more, over and over, and I'm thinking, Dude, how the hell can we develop as a couple when I can't even trust for you to be there. It has got to the point where I make double plans whenever we have plans. Like I will make plans to go out with a friend if he says we are hanging out, just so I'm not stuck home moping about the crap.
He is still pretty much begging and my heart really wants to give in, but my head is like, Fuck this Bullshit, I have other things to do right now. So I haven't even responded to him. i still have to see him tonight to give him something, and I am thinking I will just give myself until then to really evaluate things.
What do you guys think? Sorry if this is long, I am really bad at this relationship thing, I have always been the type who would rather be single just so people dont bother me, seriously!