I have been married for 2.5 years now. The past 1.5 of it has been trying. Well, Dh has a bad temper and has gotten physical in the past. I stayed even though I knew I should have grabbed the kids and left. Well, the past 6 months I have felt nothing for dh. I love him but not like I did before. Now it seems like a friendship rather than a relationship. The last big fight we had broke my heart (again). Since then I have been trying to keep things normal but deep down I want nothing to do with him. I hate his touch, kisses and want nothing to do with sex from him. I try to avoid it at all cost. The last 2 times he was not to penetrate and promised he wouldn't. Well he did and I wanyed to cry each time. It felt like I was being raped all over again. He is hurt at the fact I want nothing sexual between us or even want him touching me. He is starting to realize I don't want him like before.
I just wanted to vent.
Thanks for listening