Its just so hard to trust him as we were young and stupid.
I want this relationship again... I want to love him entirely and not just a little like im letting myself now. I miss him incredibly right now.
We spent a good chunk of time on a pier just talking. He kept gradually getting closer to me. Until there he was grabbing my hand. I feel so at ease. So comfortable with him. Then some other people came up and we walked back to my car were we sat cuddled up listening to the radio. Then he started running his hands down my back and onto my shoulders.. I haven't had butterflies in years.. Not like that.
Then he kissed my neck and shoulder. I couldn't help myself after that. I had to kiss him. It had been 7 years, and it felt like the first kiss all over again. I ended up having to take him back to work as he needed to do night inventory. He kissed me good night and told me again for the 3rd time how beautiful i was..
I didn't want to drive away.. I left a piece of me there with him.
I am so still in love with him.