It was almost a year ago. But I'm still upset and crying about it. Our relationship has gotten better, but I still hurt. And I'm upset with myself for letting a man take me there. I'm on depression and anxiety meds now, I cant sleep. I have to "make" myself turned on enough to make love to dh. But if I don't he knows not to touch me. Some nights I even pick a fight before bed just so that he won't. We have not done therapy because we can not afford it. So I need some help? Ideas? Please.