text him?

[Anonymous]

 me and BF are fighting... i wnt talk to him, but i've tried for a few days before i just stopped trying.

right now, i'm slowly slipping into that black hole. i want to text him... i want to say-- i'm suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts. i need u but i know u cant be here...

i kicked him out today. told him to go to his parents for the night. he's prob sleeping and he has to be up in 5 hrs for work anyways... but i feel weak for wanting to send him that text, but feeling weaker b/c i'm feeling like this

[brittanyjenean]

Give him some space and find something to keep you busy.

[LucyHourglass]

suicidal thoughts? codependant much?

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

 thoughts and actions..

and yes. always been codependent. i'm trying to work on it... and its hard b/c either i'm completely dependent or i'm my own person, to where i completely close myself off from everyone. i cant find a happy medium

Quoting LucyHourglass:

suicidal thoughts? codependant much?

 

[EAzizM]

That is a shitty thing to say to someone who is distraught. op; sleep it off and if you still feel this way in the morning just text him asking him to come home so you can talk.

Quoting LucyHourglass:

suicidal thoughts? codependant much?

[bbyB10]

I pray for peace in your heart don't let the enemy make u feel unworthy the devil is a liar god gave you life HE LOVES YOU :)

[Anonymous]

This happened to me on November 5th. My SO had been trying to distant himself days before, then on the 5th, he finally answered my call(after I tried calling and texting him repeatedly) . He just was a completely different person and wouldnt talk to me. He sounded so angry. He broke up with me, I had a nervous breakdown and couldn't stop having suicidal and negative thoughts. I texted and emailed him the next day telling him I just felt like dying. All he said was "I'll text you later". I never heard from him again. I've sent him long emails and texts. He doesn't give a fuck...just now I'm getting to the point where I don't cry everyday, throughout the day. It hurts because we planned a future together and said he would never leave. I can't believe he can completely not give a shit about me. OP, give him space. It's probably what he needs.

I know it hurts but just try to do things to keep you busy. I hate sitting around doing nothing because that's when my mind starts over analyzing things and then the waterworks start.

(((Hugs)))

[LucyHourglass]

its ok, i wasnt trying to be mean i was just trying to show you that you are being ridiculous. lol. I used to be like that, I had borderline personality disorder..its actually cureable.... you should maybe talk to a therapist or something about it. you can get yourself better :) read up on it.

Quoting Anonymous:

 thoughts and actions..

and yes. always been codependent. i'm trying to work on it... and its hard b/c either i'm completely dependent or i'm my own person, to where i completely close myself off from everyone. i cant find a happy medium

Quoting LucyHourglass:

suicidal thoughts? codependant much?

 

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

 i didnt take it as being mean.... i KNOW i have those isues. i was in abusive relationship after abusive relationships b/c of it.. and even when i'm not in one, i still to this day, crave the abusive part. part of how i was raised... abuse= love. i know its not real/right, but thats how i feel 90% of the time-- something i'm working on.

i have my appointment on wednesday. how do they determine if you have borderline personality disordeR?

Quoting LucyHourglass:

its ok, i wasnt trying to be mean i was just trying to show you that you are being ridiculous. lol. I used to be like that, I had borderline personality disorder..its actually cureable.... you should maybe talk to a therapist or something about it. you can get yourself better :) read up on it.

Quoting Anonymous:

 thoughts and actions..

and yes. always been codependent. i'm trying to work on it... and its hard b/c either i'm completely dependent or i'm my own person, to where i completely close myself off from everyone. i cant find a happy medium

Quoting LucyHourglass:

suicidal thoughts? codependant much?