I hate myself. I gained 20 lbs in a freakin' year. I feel disgusting and ugly. I can feel the fat too, when I sit, walk, lay down. I feel it in my face. I cried half the day away after stepping on that scale. And my stupid hair just makes it worse, I look hideous with this stupid haircut. I honestly don't know why my fiance thinks I'm attractive. I feel like a fat old ugly bitch :( I just feel like giving up on everything.