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F*** THE DR! IM DONE! update appt made

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Update 2 : 

I made an appointment today with a new rheumatologist. I go in a few weeks. We will see how this goes. wish me luck


update 1:    

EDIT: I have osteoarthritis and possibly fibromyalgia 

Also, i have some discs that are malformed but the doctor said those should not be causing any pain.

I think I will see a rheumatologist. I just called my PCP and asked for a referral. 


IM SICK OF LIVING IN PAIN EVERY DAY. DAY IN AND DAY OUT. IM MISERABLE. I have multiple medical conditions that cause chronic back and joint pain and I am just done. My dr. is undertreating the pain and refuses to write anything more to help with the pain. I am tired of following that dr.'s orders on how to take the pain medication. I have been more than compliant and patient for over two years trying to figure out what is going on and getting the meds straightened out. The dr. still will not write more medication and the amount I am on is a freaking joke. I take it in the AM just to get out of the f*cking bed and get my kid off to school in the morning. I get a couple of hours of pain relief, believe me I take advantage of this time because if I don't nothing will get done here. After that, all I do is live in misery. So, I have decided that instead of having a couple hours of pain relief each day, I will take the medication every 4-6 hours as needed instead of once daily. (it is not an extended release medication and it is usually written for 4-6 hrs even says on the bottle to take that way) I will run out after a week or two but I would rather have a week or two of my old life back than have a couple hours each day and then follow up with miserable pain. I'm going to hate myself when I run out, but DAMMIT IM SICK OF IT. My kids are suffering because I am MEAN when I am in such pain and when I am not mean I'm just laying on the couch shifting and squirming because I am hurting so bad. Mommy want to go to the park? Fuck no. I'm just gonna lay here and wish for death to come swiftly. but it never does. It never fucking does. Nope, not with what God has decided to punish me with. I'm just gonna wish for it but it will never come. I hate myself. I hate my body and I hate this life. My kids aren't happy and neither am I. I need to go to work but my god I know I can't make it through a shift without taking more medication. I went to a birthday party last weekend, I have paid for that ever since. I don't go to the park with the kids anymore, hell I don't even let them go outside anymore. (they are both under 5) I just can't chase after them and pick them up, or swing them, or anything. I certainly can't stand for long periods of time and I damn sure can't sit in a lawn chair. God help me. I just want out of this. 


Before you suggest I go to another doctor think about this, I have been seeking a diagnosis for this crap for at least 7 years. I finally got a diagnosis (at least for one thing, the other thing the dr. just keeps saying I have all but ONE of the symptoms needed for the diagnosis of) The main thing that has kept me with this doc is that I don't want to look like a druggie just looking for pain pills. I don't want to be one of those people who look like they are doctor shopping. I just want ONE doctor to go to. I want that ONE doctor to do their job and fix me. at this point I would be happy if they just put a damn epidural in for life and stick my ass in a wheelchair. Just numb it all from the neck down. I don't care. Just take away the pain. 


Oh yea, because it is cafemom I will say this: if you come in here and you have never lived with chronic pain or you think everyone is a  drug addict, just leave. Don't waste my time with your stupid snotty hateful remarks. your ignorant and I don't want to hear it. 

I'm going to take a lortab. 

If you live in pain and just want to bitch about it, comment below.

Posted by Anonymous on Dec. 5, 2012 at 9:57 AM
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1likeme
by Gold Member on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:21 AM
I don't think doctor shopping is a bad thing. It has a negative association but the truth is the doctor patient relationship is important and you should find a doctor who you feel listens and who is willing to treat you so that you can lead as normal a life as possible. I don't have a chronic pain issue but I do have some sort of neurological one and I have so far seen three different neurologists in the last six years. Finding the right doctor can be a very frustrating process but it's worth it.
Anonymous
by Anonymous 6 on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:22 AM

I was under the care of two doctors.  One was helping me with chronic pain due to some kind of arthritis condition and the other was caring for my recurring kidney stones.  I'm 4'10 but weighed 141.5 pounds at the end of August.  I had a kidney stone problem at the end of August and had to go to the ER.  They took my blood pressure.  The top number was nearly 200.  After pain medicine it only came down to 150.  The ER wanted me to start meds for high blood pressure.  After seeing the number and realizing I'd have to take another medication, the solution for ME (as in may not be YOUR answer :-) ) was to drop my weight.  I've lost nearly 15 pounds just by becoming more aware of how much excercise I get by using a pedometer and I cut my portions and I don't drink soda and just generally watch what I eat.  For the last month I've had to take virtually no pain meds and my daughter is eating up the extra attention I can now give her because I'm not in constant pain.

It sucks to be in constant pain.  I hope I never have to feel that way again and I wish all the best as you continue to try and find what works for you.

Anonymous
by Anonymous 7 on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:23 AM

You have my sympathy,  I have chronic pain, but mine is managed.  So, I suggest you find a chronic pain specialist.  Because it sounds like you ran into what I did.  "We don't want you addicted to these pain meds, so you can have enough for one a day or one week every four hours."  So I found someone who would listen to me that I was in pain and it was not getting better, and that I did not want to be addicted, just able to care for my kids.  I found someone who works with me.  Who gives me enough meds to make it through the month and something for sudden flares.  But, I went to half a dozen different doctors first.  And I did find someone willing just prescribe narcotics all over the place, but guess what? You cannot care for your kids in a narcotic haze either.  So I found someone new. 

Anonymous
by Anonymous 8 on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:24 AM
Change your diet.



And i am confused on how the diagnosis you are trying so desperately to get, is going to make things better?!
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firespurity
by Ruby Member on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:24 AM
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Go to pain management
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dtristan78
by Silver Member on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:25 AM
According my SPECIALIST you need x amount of points and not all! Your doctor sounds like a moron!!!! I had 2 doctors in the past that told menu didn't have it. My current doctor, after a year of constant complaining, sent me to the specialist. Blood work and xrays were normal. I have 8 out of 10 points and he diagnosed me with fibro. I'm taking Lyrica, occasional injections in my trigger points, but I'm doing much better now.
I have days of constant pain but I'm happier with this treatment.
I'd suggest dropping your doctor and starting over.


Quoting Anonymous:


Quoting dtristan78:

Have you been treated for fibromyaglia? I'm not sure what your conditions are but chronic pain and lower back pain could be fibro.

I have fibro and have 10 years and numerous doctors, ineas sent to Rhuemotologist and he's helping.

Good luck and I'm sorry you hurt so badly.

My doctor says that I don't have all the "points" for a fibromyalgia diagnosis. I am only missing two points. I actually do hurt there it's just not as bad as the others. 


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CrazyLife1996
by on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:26 AM
I had to fight for years to get the help I needed for my chronic pain. Finally I went to a Neurosurgeon about my back. They referred me to a really good pain management doctor and started me in PT. Now I'm doing the last of the test for surgery.

I know you don't want to hear new doctor but sometimes you just have to bounce to find help.


Quoting Anonymous:


Quoting Anonymous:

Why not go to pain management? They will be able to give you stronger meds

That's the kicker. My doctor is a neurologist but also does pain managment. It's freaking ridiculous.


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JacksMom1221
by Platinum Member on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:26 AM
Maybe you could ask for other meds. There are non narcotics that help with pain, Neurontin, Lyrica, Toredal, Ultram. Maybe you could see a specialist.
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Anonymous
by Anonymous 9 on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:26 AM

Go get laid...maybe you will feel better....if not, at least you wont so be crabby!!

CrazyLife1996
by on Dec. 5, 2012 at 10:28 AM
Having a name for what is wrong is a form of relief. You don't feel so crazy.


Quoting Anonymous:

Change your diet.





And i am confused on how the diagnosis you are trying so desperately to get, is going to make things better?!

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