so I have had the urge to want to have a baby for about 3 months. I just got out of psych (pls no judging) hospital. I have been with the same man for almost 2 years and we have been through a lot. I also have my own 4 year old boy.
Between my sons douche father and a laughable amount of child support, droppong my full time course load, and dealing and trying to manage my medical illnesses, and relationship ups and downs, it is really hard to still ignore my earge.
I am being responsible with my birth control and I know that a symptom of what i have is impulsitivity so I have something that has to be sergically removed, but in office type of thing. Implanon I believe.
I found some things on my boyfriends computer and I dont like them much. I tried not to look and i even made a guess account on this computer. today he urged the password thing and gave it to me.
I don't know how to think in my head. along with my normal racing thouhts all this is now being mixed in my head. I just want to lay down and forget it all.