I made a post earlier titled I can't do this anymore. It talked about some problems me and dh were having. I don't know how many of you saw it. A lot happened in the time I made the post. I told some of it in the comments.
It started off I was upset. It's been a long day and dh had told me he wanted tonight to just be a me and him night. Well when I went to lay dd down for bed he snuck off to go see his brother. So I got even more upset. His brother is leaving in the morning to go back to washington. He was just here visiting. Dh was supposed to get up in the morning to see him off. I wouldn't have been so upset had he not just got done telling me he wanted to spend time with me tonight since he's been being an ass and we've been fighting a lot. So He comes back and than starts being mean to me because of it, I finally get fed up and tell him that I can't do this anymore and that I want to leave. So he gets irrate and tells me he is going to leave and that he wants nothing to do with the baby (I am pregnant) or dd. He than said that he was going to try to say that I cheated on him and the baby wasn't his so that he wouldn't have to pay child support or have anything to do with the baby. (dd is not his biologically) He than started talking crap and telling me how much of a bad parent I am. I lost my temper and slapped him. I didn't mean to. I know I shouldn't have but I just lost it for a second. He than pushed me and hit me on my arm and leg. I pick up my phone and call my mom and he grabs his keys and leaves. My mother can't really do anything since she is in another state and has absolutely no money but she did manage to calm me down. Dh comes back a little while later. We argue a little while longer. He goes to the kitchen makes a snack. When he comes back he is calmed down. He says he is sorry he hit me that he never should have done that. We start talking. He says he does want to see the baby and dd that he does not want to abandon them. He also says he does love me but he does not think that we should be together. He wants things to end on good terms. So it gets quiet because I just don't know what to say so I'm just sitting there crying. He starts rubbing my leg and trying to hug me but I'm tel;ing him not to. I ask him why he's acting like that if we're not going to be together anymore and he says that just because we're not together doesn't mean he doesn't care and he doesn't love me.
He's asleep now, I can't sleep. I don't know what to do. He has NEVER done anything like this before. Sure we have our fights but who doesn't? He's never done anything like he did tonight. Normally he's really sweet. We've had it rough here recently but we always make it work. He always makes sure dd and I have what we need. He's said some mean things before. He's an asshole when he gets mad but it's never gotten anywhere near what happened tonight.