just got out of a relationship.
i told ex about it... after YEARS of telling him it'd never work out between us, etc- he just got okay with the idea that we'd only be friends/co-parents.... so he asked about my relationship. i kept putting it off, but he'd ask specific questions (what the guy and my kid did, if my kid bought anything for the guy for christmas, etc)... i told him that we broke it off....
and it gave him hope that me and him could work it out. i know i'm not ready for a relationship, but i'll admit- i was enjoying the attention. i know i made a big mistake. i dont like him like that, i dont want to be with him-- the idea of being with him, like that (sexually), makes me want to throw up!
but i cant tell him b/c then he'll go psychotic again and i cant handle that. ugh he'll take it out on my kid- i know he will!
i fucked up. badly. i can just hope that he figures out i'm too crazy to be with and decides that he doesnt want to be with me either