I'm not sure if I should go to Newtown or not ETA- I went.
I have the day off and I really want to go down to Newtown with some flowers and pay my respects to the lives lost, and mourning families. I wanted to go to the vigil the other night, but I feel like since I'm not a Newtown resident I'll just be in the way to the people that really need to be there. I don't know what to do.
It's been a very difficult time in CT. I realized yesterday that the principal was the mother of one of my grade school friends, Erica. My professor told us yesterday that Rachel D'Avino went to my school and was one of his students. He is a behavior analyst, and did not know that she had gone on to become one herself. Almost my entire class knew someone that was lost, or one of their family members and we all just cried. It's finals week and most of us agreed the we had been too upset to study. I'm not really looking for advise or anything. I just needed to vent because my husband doesn't want to talk about it anymore. It's too much for him. Even though I don't have any close ties to anyone... It hurts really bad.
EDIT- I went, and I'm glad I did. As much sorrow as there is... There is SO much love in Newtown right now. THOUSANDS of flowers, candles, cards,stuffed animals, Christmas presents and trees. Someone left and American girl doll, and many other gifts. I wish every community could feel the love that I did today in Newtown, minus the tragedy. As I was leaving the memorial with my dd, a random woman came up to me, gave me a hug, and said "you're a good mom". I don't even know why, but I hugged her a heartfelt hug back. There is so much media there. We even saw news crews from Russia an Korea.
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