Do you ever fantasize about what your life would be life if your partner died?
Fantasizing About Your Partner's Death Is Inevitable
When
you get married, it's all about love and the white gown symbolizing
your so not virginal "virginity" and the fact that you are just so happy
you finally found that one person to spend the rest of your life with.
It's magical. There are bells ringing. Birds chirping. Sometimes even
harps playing. All is happy happy joy joy. Then time passes. You get
older. And you start thinking about what your life would be like if your husband died.
There is a scene in This Is 40 that has the characters talking about what would happen if your spouse passed away, gently, softly, of course. Yes, fantasizing what life would be like if you were separated by death. I will admit that I have done this.
Not in the way you think. I don't want my husband to die. Ever. I'm not fantasizing about it in a romantic way -- I'm thinking of it in one of the oh my gosh what if this happened what the heck would I do kind of way. A panicked way. The same way that I thought about what would happen if I died after I became a mother. Motherhood made mortality a real fear; I couldn't die now because I have these two little beings to take care of and to love and see grow up.
But I have thought about it. If my husband died, I don't think I'd get married again. I'd probably stop shaving altogether. Downsize to a smaller house. Fill it with stuff I find on the side of the road and thrift stores. And not eat nearly as good as I do now since my husband is an incredible cook. When I asked my husband what he would do if I died, he said that was a terrible thing to think about. Good answer. It is terrible. The grieving would be so intensely painful. After nudging, he too said he'd get a smaller house, which is a good idea because since he doesn't clean he would need less space to get messy. I clean; he cooks. Clearly we need to die at the same time or else face a life lacking quality. We both said we'd miss the other terribly.
Some people though, fantasize about their partner's death as a way out. Jezebel writer Tracy Moore points out through psychology professor Benjamin Karney that the end of a marriage by a death means there is no failure involved like the feeling one would get from divorce but the person is gone. Gone gone. It's the way out without the stigma of divorce.
Death is certainly one way to leave someone. And honestly, it's the only thing I want to come between me and my husband. I took till death do us part seriously. So in one way it is more romantic to think that's the only thing that could separate us. Morbid, too, but death is inevitable. Though thinking about your partner's death as a means to get out of your relationship is a whole other issue.
Do you ever fantasize about what your life would be life if your partner died? What would you change or do?
Yes, but I wouldn't call it fantasizing since that has a positive tone in my mind and his death would be anything but positive. It streams from my father dying when I was 9. I'm constantly paranoid that my husband will go any minute like my father did and then I think about how horrible life would be without him.
I will admit, when I'm angry at him, i fantasize about my foot up his butt. Guess I'm not perfect.
I think my husband's a sociopath
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- Cafe Steph
on Dec. 27, 2012 at 9:54 AM