I let my daughter go and live with her dad when I had to work at nights all the time and I lived alone with her. I got so depressed that I ended up turning into an alcoholic. I am now sober for 9 months, and feel so good about my life and I never am going to drink again. It is weird now cause I see how bad some people are, it's like "Hey something good happened or there is a holiday/event lets all get shit faced." Is there no other way to celebrate anything anymore? And even if so is it necessary to ALWAYS get wasted, why not just drink a little? I am not capable of just having a little anymore I assume so I will always stay away.