Well a few weeks ago he texted me & said he loved my pic on fb that it was so beautiful I said thanks then the covo went like this:
Him: Your welcome. I wish things were like they use to be
Me: I know, I wish I would've never got married or got back with (ex) when you left
Him: I wish i never left. Maybe i could of been happy.
Me: Why aren't you happy?
Him: Ive never been happy. In fact im still miserable. Everything ive done is been because i thought it was the right thing to do.
Me: I'm sorry. Sometimes what we think is right isn't what's right for anyone involved
Him: I know. On a good day im ok. Ill admit theres some days i dont think about you. Then theres some days where you pop in my head every now and then theres days like today where i miss you so much it hurts.
Me: awww =( that seriously means alot
Him: It literally hurts....my insides ache :(
Me: I remember feeling like that everyday after you left. It's weird I still claim you as my "ex" even though we never officially dated
Him: We didnt have to date to claim each other. We were lovers. Pure lovers. It was like our bodies were meant to be together. It was so strong. Strong enough that after all these years i ache for you at times.
Me: It means alot to know that someone feels so strongly for me especially when everyone who claimed to love me has hurt me & never seem to care the way I do
Him: I usually don't say anything when I feel this way, but I just couldn't help it tonight
Me: Well thank you for saying something. It makes me feel like I am worth loving...well caring for
Him: I do love you. Idk if ive ever said it but i do. I cant help it. I know you love me and i dont think youve ever told me that either. But i also know you cant help it either.
Me: No you have never said it.Neither have I but I didn't at first bcuz I was scared to run you off, then bcuz you were with her so I felt defeated
Him: I'm sorry things didn't go right, in the end its all my fault
Me: we both screwed up
Him: Mostly me
Me: I guess
Him: I'm sorry I hope I'm not upsetting you I just couldn't hold it in tonight
Me: no its ok
I'm no fool I don't plan on some affair with him, but if/ when he gets divorced I hope we find our way back to each other. I always said I would never date a man with kids but I would make an exception for him