I realize what Christmas is all about. And I am very happy to keep it simple as it is supposed to be. But at least one little present or at least a card to let me know that someone thought enough of me to spend the time. I must not be a good enough person and that hurts my heart to think nobody in my family couldn't think enough of me. When everyone else got Ipods, laptops, ds's, jewlery. I am not mean and I love everyone. I try to do my best and give when needed. I wonder.....am I horrible? Or is it everyone around me? I know nobody is owed a thing. But at least to have one person to hug and kiss me in a season of giving..............I am selfish and don't deserve some how.