I finally got the nerve to kick dh oout/added

[Anonymous]

And now for some reason I can't quit crying.

I posted all week about us fighting and me wanting to leave.

last night i couldn't handle any more of his securities and jealousy,emotional abuse and told him to leave this morning.

He stayed at his dads last night and I let him take dd.
He came this morning for me to take him to work so I can have the car and he is making me feel guilty saying things like ,"You know what its like not having a dad around don't do that to the kids,and telling me to not through everything away and he swears he can change:( He's making it so much harder. asked for a kiss when he left bc he will be gone until Friday and I gave him the cheek. Said he's going to call at night like always i told him that's for the kids not me.

[IntactivistMama]

*hug*

[uriahadel]

Why are you crying?? I would be relieved!

[cassi_d_m]

I'm so sorry :-(

[etsmom]

Stay strong. Whether or not you get back with him or not, you need to stay strong now so that he see s that you mean it. It hurts now, but try to keep yourself busy.

[jbirdsladie27]

(((hugs)))

[Anonymous]

Try to focus on you now. You and yours needs

[kissmiss213]

its ok, its sad. but you did the right thing, so cry it out now, and then move on.

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

Thanks girls.we've been together since I was 14 so the last ten years and my whole growing into an adult was spent with him.
i know its best in the long run but its hard to get over this slump. MY whole family is going to be mad and try talking me out of it but I hope I can stay strong and figure this out.

[nysa76]

I think it's natural to grieve.  Just because your marriage ended up badly doesn't mean you won't grieve the loss of your dreams for your marriage, for the future you hoped for when you said your vows.  Good luck momma!  It does get easier.

[Anonymous - Original Poster]

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