It's not a good time for this to happen, though I can not think of when a good time would ever be. This is the weekend of my baby shower and I was so happy till my mother called me last night. She told me my Meme (Gma) was admitted into the hospital for her carbon dioxide levels being too high. On top of that she was refusing treatment from the bypass machine. I called my Meme and told her how important it was to me for her to meet her great grandson, like almost trying to guilt her into living. Even with all that she still refused treatment, and this morning was unconscious so they put her into the ICU. I am so afraid now, my son is due on the 28th and my Meme is barely hanging on because she does not want to anymore. She is 68 and that seems so young to me for her to give up on life. I don't want to be upset with her for refusing to live but DAMNIT I kind of am. I love her and she deserves to at least she her great grandson be born. Maybe I am selfish for wanting that I can't help it, I just love her so much and this was suppose to be a happy weekend. :( Now I can't even find myself wanting to do anything but be sad.
this is Kiley and my unborn son Alexander.