I dropped out of high school.
Started going to GED classes, ended up moving so I had to stop going.
Got married and had my first child at 19.
Had baby #2 when I was 21.
I've always been a SAHM, I've only had 2 jobs at a gas station cooking in the deli & that was back when I was 17 & 18, with no kids - just DF.
Now, 5 years later, I am 24 - my kids are almost 5 and 2 1/2. I'm a SAHM. One of my kids is possibly autistic (we've been to a few docs, and are doing some tesing), so I have to be here for the therapies all week long. I still have no GED.
DH and I are having problems. Apparently, I'm a bitch. I can't hold in my frustrations when he says things like "You're useless." & "Why would I want you, anyways?" & "You have no adult common sense. You are stupid. You couldn't make it on your own." I guess I just become some uberbitch that makes him want to leave. Makes him hate me more and more everytime. He is emotionally and mentally abusive towards me, I can't remember the last time he even said good job or way to go to me. I fail at just about everything I do, but I KNOW I'm a wonderful mom. I get no appreciation from him, yet here I am making sure he doesn't have to a damn thing when he gets home from working all day. Everything is done and clean, supper is cooked (and served to him).
We had one of those fights this morning. Over clothes - yeah. I guess when I got his pants out of the dryer, they were still a tad wet in the pocket crease. Okay, no problem, I'll go get you another pair. Well, that totally set him off, and it just escalated from there. He said that he won't be coming home after work. I know he will, we don't live near any family and we have hardly any friends. He doesn't go out drinking either, so I know he'll come home.
I guess what I'm getting at is: Were any of you able to leave a situation like this? Or when he left you, you were okay? What am I supposed to do? I have no money, I don't drive - nor do I have my license. I have no work ethic, no education. I also feel pretty stupid, just because all I do is take care of kids - I don't really remember much from school. I'm wicked fucking scared.
I'm posting this anonymously because I come here a lot. I don't want anybody knowing it's me. :(