The fight we had this morning...* POSITIVE UPDATE PG 18****
A little brief background... Were pregnant.. I quit drinking/ smoking/ taking mood meds all new years... I got a job. we have been dealing with two sick kids.. I have not slept in two nights other than a cat nap yesterday. my daughter was up all night crying, sick. I could not get her to sleep and literally was a walking zombie.. so tired I didn't even have clear thought.. Almost felt ill myself from lack of sleep.
at 430 my husband gets up and lays on the living room floor with her.. I crawl into bed.. 15 minutes later he has to leave for work and tells me she is still sleeping on the living room floor 15 months old. So i'm pissed.. why in the hell didnt he just pick her up and put her back in her bed? So I get up and am bitching to myself. Pick her up and put her in her bed. She starts crying... (the door is shut).. i go into the kitchen and he proceeds to call me everything from stupid to idiot to worthless mother.. Right in my face... I dont know what came over me ( I have told him sooo many time I cant handle being called names) Reminds me of my first abusive marriage).. Well he proceeds to call me name and I dont know what the hell ... but i just spit in his face... YES i did... The most horrible thing I could do I did... I just couldnt take him calling me names anymore.. I think it added up the night before I went to work for a 4 hours shift.. I came home and he had been drinking beer 7... i counted! The second I get home he goes to bed and up all night I am with the kids... AGAIN.. Granted he works early in the morning..
Anyways so when I did that disgusting thing He flipped out.. Grabbed me by the neck and just shouted "your lucky I don't knock you out, you fucking disgusting bitch".. So he is grabbing me and I yelling... then he spit in my face (yup at this point were not better than 15 year olds).. And he is coming at me... I just reminded him to get his hands off me and Im pregnant. He walked away and I took a shower. HE slammed the door calling me a nutt job and left for work..
I feel absolutely HORRIBLE.. My ex- husband spit on me all the time.. I have no idea why I would do this. I called him while he was driving in and he was just screaming at me.. I told him again I cant take the name calling.. (I had NO right to do what I did)... He said well if you act like and idiot Im going to tell you your an idiot...!!!! Why does he have to be like that...