So, about four-ish years ago, Dh and I had just moved to a new city, and I ended up cheating on him with my managaer at work. It took me months to actually get up the nerve to tell him. I didnt have sex with the guy though. I showed him my boobs about ten times in the walk in freezer and he kissed my neck a few times too. I kissed him once, but it felt wrong and I didnt ever do it again.
Well, we were engaged at the time, and we got married last year in January. Our anniversary just passed two days ago actually. Well, he said he was going to hang out with a group of friends last night after work, which he always does anyway.
Hes a really big bar kind of guy. We have a one year old dd so I never go out. Plus, Im pregnant and about 13 1/2 weeks along.
He never answered my calls or texts. He showed up this morning and I was taking the dog outside to go potty and I saw him pull up and there was a girl in his car sitting in the passenger seat. I knew something was up right away because hes not the cheating type of guy, ever.
So, he said we need to talk. We went into the garage and he said that he did a lot of talking last night and hes tired of being unhappy and that he hopes we can still be friends. I just stood there and cried. I know its my fault that all of this is happening, He has told me over the years that he has forgiven me but I know ever since then its been completely different. It felt extremely forced and I wasnt happy either. Its just shocking that its actually happened.
What am I supposed to do with the babay we are pregnant with? I want to have it, but I dont want to have no daddy around. Or a stepmom for both my kids. I hate the thought that my kids will be coming from a broken home.
I am just sitting here crying and Im not sure what Im supposed to do. Im glad my dd is only one so she doesnt know what is happening right away.