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i'm so stupid

Posted by Anonymous   + Show Post

idk how to stay away from him. i KNOW he'll be the end of me. i know this- and yet, i cannot stay away. i am attracted to him, i want him, i desire him... but i also hate him. he disgusts me. he knows all of this. i tell him often that i hate him sometimes.... and yet, he still thinks we can work together, that we'd work as a couple.


what is wrong with me? he's like my drug. i know he's wrong- wrong for me, wrong to be around... but i cant stay away from him. i have love towards him, he has a piece of my heart... but i'll be honest, i know that he loves me, but i feel like if i go back with him- that means i love myself less. i deserve more than him, more than what he did.... i'd be settling if i went with him-- but my god, i LOVE him, i want him.

my family will hate me if i got with him. they will disown me and they help me so much. i've been feeling like this since i first met him, 8 years ago. we were together... then we were seperated- my family forced me. when i finally came back, he was with another girl, told me to leave him alone... so i did. thats what he wanted... but he says that he was never happy, that he was too fucked up on drugs to really know.

i moved on to a different/better relationship... i have since left that guy, but my feelings for him is still so strong. stronger than ever before.

Posted by Anonymous on Jan. 17, 2013 at 1:30 AM
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Anonymous
by Anonymous 2 on Jan. 17, 2013 at 7:52 PM
Unfortunately its harder to walk away from the bad ones. Trust me I know. But you have to walk away. I've been where you are. Its very hard, but you deserve better.

Quoting Anonymous:

i have a son... i like that though-- i do feel that the price will be more than i'm willing to bargain with... so why is it so hard to just stay away?! what is wrong with me!? =(

Quoting Anonymous:

You sound like a friend of mine.

Sometimes risking it a comes with a price far greater then what you're bargaining for.

Do you have a daughter?



Quoting Anonymous:

b/c even though i know better, i still love him. you have to risk everything to gain everything, right?... at least thats how sometimes i feel. i want to risk it but at the same time, i dont. 

Quoting Anonymous:

I think you need to move on.


If you know you deserve better. Why settle? Why risk everything for someone whose no good?



Benjamins-mama
by Platinum Member on Jan. 17, 2013 at 7:56 PM

why would you risk this when you have children to care for?  put your kids first  focus on them and not your love life

momo3fgr8tteens
by Ruby Member on Jan. 17, 2013 at 7:57 PM

sounds like codependency rather than love, which can be very hard to break, maybe get some counseling

Anonymous
by Anonymous 3 on Jan. 17, 2013 at 8:00 PM

It's been 8 years since you were together? Maybe he has changed, especially if he was a druggie back then. Follow your gut, not your heart.

Wicked.Jester
by on Jan. 17, 2013 at 8:00 PM

This.  What you are doing is horrible for your child.  Think of your child and not yourself.  Your CHILD deserves that.

Quoting Benjamins-mama:

why would you risk this when you have children to care for?  put your kids first  focus on them and not your love life


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