Well, I told my mom about my situation the day of and she called me retarded. She asked me was I crazy and how I was gonna kill myself having babies, mind you I'm 37 years old and married. I had issues with my first three pregnancies, because I was in a very abusive relationship(first marriage) and it was stressful. Anyway, she told me she would personally take off work to take me to get "fixed". HUH?! That hurt me to my heart. She made other cutting remarks against me and my new husband, and he has a heart of gold. Now, my momma don't believe in second marriages because you're going to hell. So instead of her asking me was I okay or if I needed anything, she straight hit me below the belt. I can now always remember my mom being mean and saying harsh things to my brother and I when we were young like "You're gonna be sorry like your daddy." Right now, I just cry. I find myself trying to please my mom and want her to be my friend is what I'm realizing. I cried more over what my mom said than the fact I had a miscarriage.
So I went to therapy and I've now been told I have Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. It all stems from my moms verbal abuse, my dad not being around as a child, sexual abuse as a child, almost raped, domestic violence from my first marriage and other things. Thank God I now have a great husband, and he treats me like a queen so I know he's not a factor.
So my question is, am I wrong from alienating myself from my mom. She's been calling me and leaving voicemails for me to call her about helping her out with something. Crazy thing is that she doesn't sound remorseful or sound as if she's said anything wrong. It's like nothing is wrong. I love my mom but I can't be around her. And she's a pastor may I add. This ain't how a Christian is suppose to act especially toward their children. I love the Lord but she even acts like she's the only one going to Heaven. So am I wrong for keeping my distance?