I was dating this guy for a couple of months. It wasn't too long, but we spent a lot of time together and I really was falling for him. He's a decent guy, with a good job and goals...all things I'm never generally attracted to. For some reason I always go for the "bad boys" and always have. This guy was the first one that didn't fit that description..and I thought he was great.
His life was full of stress though and he broke it off with me. I was super hurt, and wondered if it was something I had done, but I will never ever beg a guy to be with me...so I stopped contacting him at all and went on with life.
This week he texted me...apologizing and saying he was wrong for what he did. He asked if I was angry with him and if I would consider giving him another chance. I pretty much jumped at that and told him that I would. I rearranged my entire schedule to see him last night (I hadn't seen him in about six weeks), and was super nervous. I got all ready for him to pick me up, and then just before we were supposed to go out, he texted saying he was "in a bad mood sorry." :(
So...he blew me off. He explained the other day that his life was still super stressful, but that he still wanted to see me. I think it's pretty obvious at this point that he is never going to make me a priority..and that he doesn't handle the stress in his life well. Anyway, I should have just told him off last night, but something stopped me.
This morning, I find myself hoping he'll text again apologizing. WTF is wrong with me? Seriously... I don't think I've ever been effected like this by a guy. I have generally very low self-esteem, but I'm pretty average looking I think. This is ridiculous. I know that if he texts I need to tell him that I never want to see him again...but it's going to be hard. I'm just venting...so if you read this...thanks. I think I need to be single....forever.