So I have been battling back and forth with having a baby for so long. Dh doesn't want anymore this he makes known. I however would am aching on the inside.
So last month my bestfriend told me she was pregnant I was very happy for her but still sad.
A week almost 2 later I find out another friend is pregnant. Still happy for her yet sad.
A week ago I found out my youngest sister was pregnant she is 18 I was worried still am of course but happy as I can be for her.
Today my sil tells me she is pregnant., I am happy for her but yet sad.
I have been going back and forth about this with dh for 2 years. I am crying so hard trying not to let anyone hear me right.now.
I keep trying to tell myself it will be OK. It may never be meant for me to have another one. But I am so just sad and depressed.
I am trying to put it in my head that most of them wanted to get in shape. So while they are all getting bigger i will get in even better shape. I want a six pack by June.
I feel bad for wanting to be all sexy while they are all pregnant they will be enjoying it and I guess I am looking forward to enjoying being in the best shape of my life. I am already in good shape, but might as well get in even better shape.
Only.my best friend knows how depressed I am about this. And now you all. Dh knows it bothers me but doesn't know about his brother yet. He will know today. There is more to it but I hate reading extremely ling posts so I wont bore you all. But if someone is in a similar situation I would love to hear from you. TIA