I don't know if I love my husband anymore or am I a bitch?
OK, I sometimes feel like I have no emotional connection with my husband. The truth is I want to but lately it doesn't seem to exist. He's a hard worker and has a very physically demanding job and I'm a stay at home homeschooling mom to our daughter. I respect what he does but I don't think it means he has the right to be such a lazy bum when he gets home. I don't expect him to do dishes or chores, that's my job as a stay at home mom, but does he need to leave shit lying around all over when I just busted my butt all day cleaning and teaching our daughter? He constantly orders me around when he gets home, "Hey! Grab me a soda... Hey! Grab me a q-tip... Hey! Grab me a (whatever the hell it is)..." SERIOUSLY!!! Get up and freaking grab it yourself!!!! You're 30 years old and have two legs and 90% of the time you're closer to whatever it is you want than I am. Plus I think I'm totally sexually deprived which is not helping my situation. I feel so bitchy all the time. Yet I try not to show it. But inside I'm boiling mad. I'm 28 and at my sexual peak and he's slowing down and I swear this laziness of his is taking over our sex life. When we do, it's just wham bam thank you maam. Would it kill him to kiss me or try to Don Juan it a little? Geez, it starts to make you feel like a piece of meat. And I can admit, this is partially my fault. I babied him for years and now when I've had enough, if I start to show some hostility, I'm the big bitch. Now, when I see him I almost have no desire whatsoever. I give up... Errrg... Sorry I'm kinda venting but I can't stand it anymore. What to do???