I've always been dependent on my husband, and before that my mom.. I went straight from home to him.. No education, no job, no car or license.. I've been a stay at home mom for almost 5 years now.. When I was young I didn't give much thought to my future.. I was depressed and confused about life and who I was.. Then I met my husband and we were together ever since.. He's been the sole provider for everything.. He's controlling, abusive and unfaithful.. he's kept me from doing anything with my life.. But I almost didn't really care because I became a mom and I just focused on doing that.. I tried for years to change him. Obviously that doesn't work.. I was just one of those unrealistic women that want their family so bad they are blind to the truth about serious issues.. I am happy to say I'm now leaving him.. But I have nothing.. My kids have nothing to revive from me but.. Love. I don't know how this is going to work.. I don't know what I'm going to do.. All I know is I'm doing it.. If finally hit the cold rock bottom. And I'm scared to death of failing.. He's finally agreed to let me leave him.. But I already know he'll most likely be in my ear a lot.. Which won't make it any easier.. But I know I can do it this time.. I just am so afraid of the world.. I hate to admit it. When I was young I had no cares.. But now two children with nothing to give them.. A lot of social anxiety and serious emotional issues.. I'm afraid of being out in the world.