What do you do when you don't want to fight it anymore? What do you do when you wish you never got married or had kids so that you could just kill yourself without guilt? The urge to hurt myself is immense. Honestly I have just been wanting to cut my femoral artery and end it. It sucks. I am done with being strong and keeping it together an everything. I want it to be over.
Yes I am in therapy and medicated but obviously I still have issues and it sucks. And I will not hurt myself. No matter how bad I feel I cannot do that to my children.