Ive always been a big girl. Ive never let it hold me back from anything. I coached my kids basketball team, walked..rode bikes.. everything anyone else would do. I got sick in 2011. Found out i had a heart defect then injured my back within a two month span. I couldnt walk for a month, and after surgery to fix my heart i developed pneumonia and an arrythmia that left me with little tolerence for activity. Anyway..in 14a months ive gained 85 pounds. Im miserable, no energy, i hurt... i hate myself.
I dont get out much. Dont even go to doctor appts because i dont want to get on scale. My husband is talking to other women...and who can blame him? We want to have a baby..but ill never get pregnant at this weight. My kids miss me..i miss me..
I cant hardly walk.. i have to work and if i walk extra i hurt to bad to work. I want to try atkins..cause counting calories isnt working.. but i just know ill fail.
Im crying so much and so sad.. i dont know where to turn. Feeling pretty hopeless..