Every God-damned community program is for kids, all the job training programs are for kids and youth, and even foodbanks show favouritism to the useless brats. I've been waiting for a permanent subsidized home since the 90's and I can't get it because I didn't validate my existence by squirting out some cunt-spit. You can't go anywhere and not have it ruined by children--every foodbank, social program, and public place I go is ruined by squalling kids and their over-indulgent parents.
Driving out Evil
Each time I bathed in the hyssop I would visualize the evil energy and negative forces of the Devil and his minions being absorbed by the hyssop. I allowed myself to experience the feelings of remorse, pain, shame, horror, humiliation, and then I would visualize it going into the herbs and the water being absorbed and then neutralized. I would wash off every last trace of the herb, coming it from my hair, washing it from my body, and visualize the negative energy spiraling down the drain. I need to do that again. YHVH is all-ways with me and giving me clues as to how to xconduct things. Yesterday I was watching an episode of Joel Osteen that I had PVR'd and Joel's sermon was on not getting caught up in people's negativity and that not every battle is yours to fight. If only I had remembered that this past week. G and I both got totally caught up in this flame war on Facebook....I should declared WWJD? and gotten on with my life, not been a total disappointment to my Father and Brother. I mean, who the Hell cares what some bunch of losers on the internet think of me? Jesus will always love and approve of me, YHVH will always be around me and within ime, and even the Blessed Virgin gives me comfort. I have my family.... what have they