Two weeks ago at this time I was writing letters to my family and friend. I had taken loads of tranqualisers to help keep myself calm. Unfortunately I took them too early and must have run out of strength because when I slit my throat with a scalpel and lay down to die, I didn't...
Now I am trying to find out how to go on living, how to WANT TO go on living. I am seeing a psychiatrist once a week. He has put me on medication to help me sleep, stay calm, etc, but I feel dead inside and wish I had done the job properly the first time.
Does anyone have a clue what I should do next? I dont even want to go back to work next week. I dont want to cook, or clean or do anything at all.
I have read hundreds of self-help articles and books over the years but still I am just hollow and empty inside. Nothing seems to work. I dont know how to make anything work anymore.
If anyone has any ideas, please help. I dont know where to go from here. I know the psychiatrist will help over time, but how do I get through today???