Is this weird? I was pregnant but it was non viable.
It would have been an awful time to have a baby at that point, and it was almost a blessing it didnt happen. But there are times I wish it had and think of, "if had had her, she'd be this age..."
I also have always thought of the fetus as a girl, and I had a name picked out, "Lily".
Is that normal? Am I being weird?