First of all my DF does have a job, and we do have an apartment with electricity. ATM however, we do not have foodstamps because DF hasn't been able to turn in his pay stubs, we have 3 kids, 2 of which are newborns. We have little food, I bf so I have to eat, but I'd rather not so I can make sure my toddler has plenty to eat. So my confession is that I feel bad when I eat, but I have to in order to produce breastmilk for the twins. I also feel bad when I can't buy him clothes, most of his are hand-me-downs from cousins or my friends' kids. I wish I were one of those moms with out a care money wise, I want so badly to be able to have money to spend on frivolous things like toys for my toddler and the twins when they get older. Really hope my DF goes to college so we can afford extra things. For now though I just really want a job that'll let me pump every couple hours..