I never spanked. I am so against it. Tonite I did it out of anger. I smacked LO's leg ( 2 years old ) and then put him in his room. I started to bawl my eyes out and so was he. I went on the patio to get fresh air and calm down. I went back in and held LO so close and told him I was so very sorry. I feel so bad. I abused my child. I have no help with him ever. I am usually very patient with him. I am pretty sure I have PMDD. Also I noticed when I ovulate I get moody too. I am going to the Dr. next week. So I am going to get help for this. I will never allow this to happen again. I hate feeling so moody like this. I am crying right now. I feel so extremely guilty. I am so scared that my LO will remember this. I know it probaly hurt his feelings so bad. So that's my horrible confession. I know I will get bashed. I deserve it. I'm a horrible Mom right now. I hate myself right now.