i'm in a funk....and my house is such a mess...........
my confession, i am in a funk. its winter and i havent been outside to just relax since sept.
cant take ds outside to play. im in a winter funk. on top of that im in a pregnancy funk. and dh has been gone all of jan only home on weekends, and will be gone all of feb too.
i have been doing pretty damn good energy wise but i swear it is just gone. i have no fucking energy.
2 more months of pregnancy to go.
i am never doing this again.
i cant stand it when the house is out of order and not perfect. just looking around at what needs to be done is making me tired.
and i painted the bathroom, but dont like the color. so i need to redo that.
dh knows i have been wanting to get the painting done, but never even attempts to help when he is home on the weekends. i guess he "hates painting" well fuck. i hate sex. (ok right NOW i hate sex, its no longer comfortable) but i still fucking do it.
i just want to nap all day. of course thats not possible. thank god ds2 isnt one of those horrible children, i know i got off lucky with him lol.
that is all