I can't wait until this year is f***ing over with. Updated.....
First my good friend gets diagnosed with Stage 3 Lukemia last week, then my daughter comes down with the flue and croup, my mom is starting to have tremors like my grandma who had parkinsons did, and now My Aunt confided in me that she has Ovarian Cancer and won't know more until they finally get her into the doctor at the END of this month. REally the end of the gad damn month. WHo the hell makes someone wait that long for something as serious as this? FUck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the worse part is I told her I wouldn't say anything to anyone until she knows what she has and how bad it is. I can't do this anymore. I have always been close to my aunt, even when her and my piece of a shit uncle divorced. and that was over 15 years ago. WHen I was diagnosed with Crohn's she was my support and has been all the way. She lives 7 hours away so its not like I can just go and visit her. I want to cry but can't because I live with my mom and then she will ask what is wrong and I can't lie very well. I could say its about my friend, as I have cried enough the last week about her but idk. Sorry this is kinda a clusterfuck of a post, but I needed to get it all out. I am so stressed becasue of this and not getting any sleep last night with my daughter being sick.
I am posting anon becasue my cousin is on this site and I don't want her to stumble across my post under my name.
So today I got a text from my ex-partners (girl) new girlfriend. My ex hasn't been a part of my daughter life since my daughter was 18months and she is now 4. I haven't talked to my ex in the same amount of time but this chick keeps trying to start shit. And now she told me she has my daughters social security number. FUck fuck fuck. I spent the morning taking care of my daughter and making phone call after phone call. Everyone kept giving me a different number to talk to. GRRR. APparently I can't put a fraud alert on my daughters number because she is underage, can't change her number because I have no proof, hell I can't even get a credit report because she is under the age of 18. I am so damn frustrated right now. I don't know how much of this I can take. I just want to scream.
My daughter is such a sweet heart though. I was ready to cry today from being so stressed and she came up to me and gave me a hug and said "mommy sometimes you just need to have some patience and things will work out" My smart little girl.