So last night I brought those fears up with my husband , I also go for my annual exam this month and told him I'm considering switching birth control types to the 10 year implant in your arm. His first reaction was " I will be 40 in ten years " I said yes ..... But I don't want to do anything permanent and take that option completely away incase we change our mind in being one and done with my medical history of severe early onset pre eclampsia and HELLP and all of Charlie's special needs. Which then started the conversation of how he feels its not fair to take away from Charlie and he's happy with one and who knows where he will be health wise in 10 years and what level of care he will need ...... But he will be 40 in ten years.
What the hell are you saying to me ? Are you just as on the fence about future kids as I am or are you for sure about no more ? I just need to know where he stands before I go for my annual.
And truthfully yes I do want another child but in my heart I know I could not handle another pre term delivery and I know it wouldn't be fair to Charlie to risk my life for another baby so in the same breath no I do not see us having anymore.
So why is it so difficult to agree on a ten year implant?
Ugh sorry guys I needed to talk to somebody about this who's unbiased in our lives.