I'm at a loss, SO is addicted to Tramadol. (Long, sorry)
Four years ago my SO secretively went to a Dr for back pain and was prescribed Tramadol. The quack Dr never told him to do follow up appointments he just keeps his prescription full and doesn't care about what happens. Since then he has started ordering the pills from Canada and other random websites and taking 4+ per day every day for all of these years. I have begged him to stop, I take the pills from him and soak them in water then throw the bottle away, threaten that my daughter and I will leave him if he doesn't stop, look up treatment for Tramadol abuse, I've done everything I can think of! They've caused major health issues and minor health issues. We've been to the hospital twice for major seizures while he was taking the pills (he's never had health issues like this before the pills). He's restless when he sleeps since taking them, he jumps all night, he's started chewing on his hand while he sleeps, and when he doesn't have them he starts kicking in his sleep violently. I have lost my health do to these issues of his, I feel like I can't let him out of my sight because I watch him to make sure he isn't taking the pills, to make sure he isn't messaging or calling someone to send him pills, and to make sure he isn't having I seizure. I feel like I can't sleep anymore, I have a hard time taking care of myself and my child because I'm so tired all the time, and I've gained a lot of depression because I am going through this again! (My mom is a meth head, my dad an alcoholic, my sister smokes pills and injects drugs, and my brother smokes weed and drinks too much. I'm straight edge and I can't take being around this, it's completely against every part of me.
I don't have people to talk to other than SO's family and don't want to out him to them yet I don't talk to my family for obvious reasons and I don't have any friends offline. I'm completely isolated with him and I just need to let this out and get some advice. What would you do if you were in my shoes? Stay with him because your child has a stable lifestyle (something you never had and want more than anything for your child), leave him so your child doesn't grow up thinking its ok to take pills all the time,or something I haven't thought of. I'm scared that I'm not as strong as I think I am and I don't want to suffer a breakdown. :(
Sorry if there are spelling or grammar errors, I'm venting and needing ideas and am a bit scattered inside.