I had a very abusive childhood. I got pregnant with dd as a result of marital rape (exdh and I were separated and getting a divorce, he came over drunk and raped me). He said he would kill me if I had an abortion. He voluntarily gave up rights a year ago. I don't know how to be a good mother to her. Part of me wants to give her up for adoption.
Am I alone in these feelings??
Eta--despite some of the raging bitches on here, I've gotten some good advice. I do love my dd but I don't know how to show her. I bought some nail polish, stickers and matching tshirts today and we are going to spend the day together tomorrow. I'm going to try to see where it goes. Maybe I can ask her what she wants to do? I think she will like it.