I've always been a painfully awkward person. You can't tell by looking at me, but I have a very awkward personality. I've never been one of those people who can just talk to people. If someone walks up to me and strikes up a conversation, I get really nervous and don't know what to say. I try to play it cool, but I wind up stuttering and saying really stupid stuff and making a fool out of myself. I've always just wanted to be able to walk up to a group of people and casually join their conversation. Today, my dh and his best friend were joking around and I was laughing along when I thought I'd throw in my own joke. They just stopped laughing and stared at me like I was completely inappropriate. I hate this!!!! I feel like I'm not normal.
Honestly, there's no point to this post. I just don't know why I'm this way and it makes me hate myself :(