going blind. and mad as hell!! **UPDATE**

For the past couple of weeks i have been losing my vision. It just comes andgoes. One second everything will be fine, the next i go completely blind. So i finally am able to go to the eye dr bc my income tax came back. I asked my mother to drive me and watch the kids during the exam. Its probably not best that i drive. She whines and complains that she doesnt want to, she lives 2 miles from me. So i asked her to come over and watch them, she doesnt want to. Well my DH came home early from work, asked him to either come or watch the kids, doesnt want to. I feel like i do fucking everything and when i really need the help no one gives a shit. Im so mad. My vision is important, its not like i have a toothache. I cant fucking SEE. After crying on the phone my mother finally agreed to come sit with them, but that i cant take to long. Im in tears bc im so frustrated.

*update* my DH finally agreed to go, after lots of eye rolling. So i called my mother and told her. She screamed at me for "thinking only of myself" and when i started crying she hung up on me. I admit that i tend to be a floormat and i shy away from confrontation. I know im meek and im working on it. Ive just had it! This is serious and i feel like they dont give a rats ass that im afraid. 

**UPDATE**I Just left the eye dr. Im now waiting on the neurolgist. I have been having mini strokes, that is what was causing the blindness. Im confused bc i am only 25, in good health, i do occasionally smoke, but other than that im healthy!! IDK. Im just so scared.

[Grumpylilpixy]

Mama, I am sorry about the update and  I knew it was probably something serious and it turns out it is. ((((((((((hugs))))))))))

I really hope they can fix it and it isn't going to continue.. Mama really I am praying for you and your kiddos.

Quoting Anonymous:

Sorry. Youre right. My kids need me to be able to see to. I shouldnt worry about the money. And as you can tell by my still comenting, i have yet to go. I got kids ready and waiting on DH. He would be so mad if i called 911...hmmm maybe i should.

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

Hun, it is your eyesight. Personally I can careless how expensive it would be. If I was going blind, I would be doing what I have to do to figure it out. 

Quoting Anonymous:

Isnt that expensive?? We dont have insurance. 

Quoting Grumpylilpixy:

You could have had hubby watch the kids when you went.

Or you could call 9-11.

If my vision was going and I couldn't drive and all that was going down I would call 9-11 and give hubby no choice but to take care of the kids. I really hope everything turns out for the best mama.

[two4one]

oh hon, i am so sorry you are being treated this way. good luck

[GracielaT-S]

If vision loss continues, please get in touch with the National Federation of the Blind. It's 50,000 members strong and they're not mad as hell. They accepted that humans come in all flavors, shapes, abilities and that those characteristics can change through time. I have a blind daughter, blind since birth and all is well. www.nfb.org. I wish you well.